Randomness of Consciousness

Nights have always been creative vents for writers: young and old ; callow and experienced.. starry nights , dark nights ( with an accompanying dark knight) , the clear skied night or the plain old rainy night. Nights.. the perfect setting for novels of diverse genres. Nights , often associated with the existence of dark forces : Incubus , the Succubus .. Now I am gonna go ahead and add another name to this list: The Insomnobus .. the demon that does not let you sleep .. that makes you conjure up weird ideas, irrelevant thoughts and douses out that feeble spark of rationality that wants you to forget everything and sleep.

A smashing pumpkins song plays in the background : in a way they remind me of myself . A blast from the past holding on to the past and yet wanting to move on, unsure of where they are but nostalgic of where they have been... . click ... I walk to my window. The street deserted except for the occasional cars that drive by, the drunk guy ambling back to home if that ever existed ....click ..salman rushdie's Grimus lies on my coffee table, flapping eagle was an enigma as was his duality of existence.. click.. I am reading a blog and I pick out something that reminds me of a city that now seems like an alternate reality-Chennai. The autos, DAV, Guindy, the British Council : remnants of a life that was mine but not any more....click.....i am on the rooftop running and jumping from one building to another.. fires burn, something crashes , adrenaline rushes and then free-fall.. darkness ..click ... loud music and swaying bodies ..the stench of alcohol and ladies cologne.... wyclef sings to the sweetest girl and then the tones of the sitar and the falsetto of an opera singer.. click... a cool breeze and a warm sun, breatjlessness, the endorphins , the sweat and the pain ...click .... bright screen .. a green matrix of numbers

Whats real and whats fantasy? In the zone of transition does it matter .. is there a cause to the effect or vice versa ..do words make sense or are they meant to? Are feelings the genesis of thoughts or the other way around? Is a sane mind an escapist reaction of an insane mind? Is cognizance a reaction to consciousness ?

Insomnibus..incubus ...succubus ..